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Delta Hotels by Marriott™ Victoria Ocean Pointe Resort- Our Easter Trip! So Excited!





Our long awaited vacation is booked! 

Our reservations are secured for our ferry back and forth from Vancouver and Nicole has booked our rooms, ocean side and thanks to her, we are all set for our Easter Weekend and  4 glorious days at the Victoria Ocean Pointe Resort!

I have experienced the Victoria Ocean Pointe Resort for over 19 years!  We first came to the resort when my daughter, mom and our big group of young gymnasts and their parents were hosted for an event and I was able to get a great rate for the whole group!

The staff went out of their way to accommodate the many needs of such a boisterous group (picture walking on hands outside the restaurant and back hand springs all over the grassy areas)….

I have loved it ever since!

Back then it was already beautiful and perfectly situated with stunning views of the inner harbor and access to excellent walking paths!  We stayed there again a few years back when they were under renovations and the service and guest rooms were just as amazing!

We can’t wait to see the completed facilities and we will definitely be experiencing the spa!


….. did I mention they have booked a couples massage for us with RMT’s.  We have both suffered car accidents  and are required to use Registered Massage Therapists to help with our pain relief. We are thrilled that Courtnee , The Spa supervisor, worked super hard and quickly to give us a selection of dates, times and  our choice of male and female RMT’s!

And then….. we are booked for dinner at LURE RESTUARANTLure! Cannot wait to try some of the items listed on the the menu!!




Excited to share with you my upcoming review on our weekend experience complete with pictures!!

Family and peeps in Victoria??? Make some time for us on the Easter Weekend…

Now… Ocean Pointe Resort, how about some sunshine???


She’s gone too far!



I am so sad to write this blog but it’s long overdue!  I have received a private message on my FB the other day  from a severely devastated father once again and enough is enough! This has gone too far, for too long!

I have a dear, dear friend who has recently lost full and complete access to his three beautiful girls due to another tragic plan of a sick and unhealthy “mother”.  Over 50 members of this man’s community came to court to testify of what a loving and incredible father he was in his fight for equal access. She couldn’t win that way so she found another. Through false accusations, and convincing her daughters that “daddy is bad”,  she has robbed a loving father of his daughters and falls into a long line of woman who has intentionally and purposefully broken the heart of another loving daddy.

Her more subtle attempts  to keep herself surrounded by her emotionally dependent girls is at the root of her conduct.  Sadly, we know that the courts are very ignorant to this sickness and something needs to change- and change now! It has become a world wide epidemic and their is a powerful team world wide growing all over the world who are working hard to stop this madness! The irony is that the team who is working hard to break this sick pattern are adult girls who have had their fathers stolen from them by their sick mommies! This  movement is powerful and its world wide.  see here: Erasing dad:

What does this mother look like?  mother and child

This “mother” (I use the word loosely) is a desperately broken woman who has access to lots of money,  has managed to manipulate a judge and court system and past friends of the couple (happens all too frequently) into believing this incredible loving father is guilty of her sick accusations which are designed to achieve her goal of being the only important one in her child’s life. These are words that she uses frequently, but what she doesn’t realize is that when she says them thinking she is noble, she is actually exposing her sick state of mind. 

Divide and conquer is her trademark and she can still be heard in restaurants and when she has been drinking to put down the other partner and even go after his new wife- that’s how threatened she is.  Healthy women DO NOT do that! They embrace the change and the new partners and welcome the child to have the best of all the love they can get from everyone! Not this woman.. she wants it all and she will do whatever she has to do to get everything and take everything from the other partner. 

Who are these women?  They are intentional, calculating and they frequently get their own way. However, their souls and the souls of their captured children are dragged into her lair of sickness and are being forced to bear her toxic poison.  See the alienation description here:

She intended to divide the girls from their father in order to punish and control the other partner she once claimed to love!  How dangerous is her “love”! She has sadly succeeded and at a very high cost, especially to her own children.  Getting her own way is her goal. She is blind to see that she has set herself on a very destructive pathway. Yes, we all know too well that bad people can literally get away with murder!  You can murder people in different ways and this has become a quality of today’s so called “modern entitled” woman. 

What is the root cause? This is 100% caused by narcissist personality disorder. The courts and children in a divorce  are frequently manipulated by these insidious personalities who do not look like the haggard, wicked witches you see depicted in movies. Often these women look charming , well groomed and quite fashion forward. They appear articulate and intelligent, charming all those that they meet.  They are engaging and full of laughter and fun and tell their stories with believable innocence- but to the watchful and careful listener, they can see their cunning words,  and their lies they tell themselves manifest their true intentions. They look very together at a glance on the outside but their trade mark and tell tale behavior is far too common and the courts are completely oblivious to it.

How to spot a narcissist:  Firstly, this article will immediately anger them and terrify them all at the same time! Here is fantastic link to help understand the trademarks of a narcissist and how they can get help. Click here:
Narcissists are entitled..You can spot them a mile away as the word “Entitled” is a frequently visitor in their vocabulary. They believe that they shouldn’t have to suffer like others, and in fact are often the cause of emotional suffering in others without compassion for those they are victimizing. In fact they are completely unaware of how their decisions and choices impact others and they don’t’ want to know!

Whether they are financially abusing or emotionally keeping people tied to them, these are just some of their trade marks. They want to punish others by keeping them tied to them in sick ways. They are frequent takers and very, very entitled. They are also completely blind.  Unable to access themselves accurately, they deny their power to hurt others.

In fact, a narcissist reading this article will be angry and even be angrier at the writer believing they are being targeted. Paranoia and misreading things is another trade mark.  They hate transparency and openness and are certain they are being “spied” on, all the while spying on others.  Another definitive quality is how they frequently live in a one up and one down position. They believe they are “up” (or superior) and those they are in disagreement with are “down” (or less than them and even resort to name calling). In marital relationships they believe that they should be put on pedestals and be treated better than how they treat their spouses.   They will keep a spouse up fighting all night and then ensure they get their rest and sleep while their exhausted spouse goes to work trying to do the right thing.  They project blame onto another and won’t share the blame in a broken relationship. They are always looking for the “ideal” partner and overburdening humans by requiring super human conduct, while they are unable to achieve that standard themselves.

Narcissists will work hard to “keep people on their side” especially in a divorce. It’s important for them to “gather” lots of cheer leaders around them to keep up their sickness.  Thinking they have healthy relationships, they even relate inappropriately with their adult children’s partners attempting always to be “socially on par” with them and not having healthy separation from them. They think they are having “healthy interactions but don’t recognize their own inappropriate behavior.  They interpret kindness for weakness and are suspicious of those they perceive are their enemies.   They are covering up their deepest brokenness and denial of their very poor self esteem that is damaged and hidden from their pretentious lives.

Even their friends are victims! They surround themselves with people who wouldn’t “dare” tell them the truth knowing that they would be “cut off” fast! They are charming!  They have a wide circle of friends who feed their egos, and call them their “best friends” but these friends are loyal because they are all in agreement with the hatred of the other party.  Longing to cling to their unhealthy friend,  they desparately hang on. and are equally “blind leading the blind” and are emotionally unwell. How does one go about seeing this? Healthy people know intelligently that there are TWO sides to every story.  These unwell minds relish in the fact that former friends of the couple are now just friends with them and have worked to ensure the “former friends of the couple”  reject the other partner! This is simple playground behavior and the “former friends” are just as foolish being caught up in the nonsense!  Intelligent people know it’s is simply impossible for one person to have all the blame and the other partner be innocent in a two way relationship! These so called “friends”  have both seen and heard how bad the other spouse is and not one of them has the courage to challenge her sick behavior or approach the other friends to learn the truth.  In fact, that is frequently their common denominator- they don’t dare disagree with her!  

Women, toxic women in a divorce are generally broken with narcissistic personality disorder. It takes courage to face the truth (which they will never invite)  and they must want to get healthy and yet they rarely do. They use the courts to benefit themselves, claiming their need to be cared for, all the while damaging and punishing others for what they perceive are injustices done to them.  Completely incapable of recognizing their own cruelty they keep people hostage to them for life financially and refused to stand on their own two feet.

Another trade mark of a narcissist is that if they have a counselor, it is generally to support their position and have a long ongoing relationship -often the same one for years!  Sticking with the same counselor is safe so they don’t have to be exposed to the objectivity of another counselor. If they do go to another counselor and the counselor points out something they don’t like, they will react and fire that counselor. Always afraid of the truth they keep themselves limited to their own circles of reinforcement in their dysfunction.  If a person is truly benefiting from a counselor, then the ” work” should have been completed in shorter range. A good counselor releases their patients quickly by being truthful and getting to the core of the issue quickly. Healthy counseling should be a very short term relationship to resolve a specific issue and then move on, getting healthier and healthier with each visit until the “treatment” is completed. It should definitely NOT being going on for years!  Any counselor that keeps this going is self serving and makes their clients dependent. On a side note,  if your counseling hasn’t led to asking  for forgiveness, its a self serving money waste and you are just keeping your counselor with an income!

Killing fathers.  The courts in this continent and sadly in other parts of the world are a part of killing the hearts of fathers, whether through literal suicide or completely broken hearts.  My own mother hated my father, and I had to work hard to break away from her hurt in order to keep myself healthy. I was the only one of my younger siblings who stood by my father at his death bed and unlike my siblings, I do not have the angst and guilt they carry to this day. I do not say that to sound self righteous, but instead I was ensuring my own self care and keeping myself from getting caught up in the prejudice of another perspective so that I wouldn’t have regrets.

Mothers have powerful influence over their children!  When mom is unwell, adult children need to reach out for true self care and that can even include making sure you don’t get caught up in the dysfunction of your mothers’ pain- if you don’t  her pain will leave you in deep pain and regret for time you can never get back.

Deep down fear of their mom’s power to reject is underlying. These poor girls have no idea that their sick loyalty to their mom is a direct result of the fear they have of her- they frequently call her “their best friend” but the evidence isn’t balanced. If they called her their best friend and they also had a good relationship with their father, THAT would be healthy!

One of the trade mark measurements  of parental alienation is an stronger attachment to one parent that the other.

Characteristics Of Severely Alienated Children

Severe cases of a child’s irrational alienation from a parent differ from mild and moderate cases by the extent of the child’s rejection of a parent and the degree of negativity in the attitudes and behavior toward the rejected parent. Severely alienated children express extremely polarized views of their parents; they have little if anything positive to say about the rejected parent and often rewrite the history of their relationship to obscure positive elements. They seem content to avoid all contact with the parent, may reject an entire branch of their extended family, and often threaten to defy court orders for contacts with the rejected parent. Severe alienation includes behavioral, emotional, and cognitive dimensions.  Severely alienated children treat the rejected parent with extreme hostility, disobedience, defiance, and withdrawal.

These victims of mom’s narcissism are unaware on a surface level of how capable she is  of destructive and powerful behavior. However, on an unconscious level they somehow know if they disagree with her, or make an attempt to reach out to their alienated father, the alienating spouse would feel threatened and do anything they can to prevent it!   Her  ‘advice” would seem quite logical in her explanations of why they shouldn’t see him, keeping the circle of lies tightly closed . They would also experience her wrath, or at best guilt for making her upset!  Did you know that a dysfunctional child will choose to alienate the parent they feel the safest with? They know that that parent will always be there for them so they feel safe in rejecting them!

When dad reaches out. Attempts by their dad are thwarted with what seems to be “healthy boundaries” but against “what”??  Logically, when challenged, they are truly uable to explain the punishment of the other parent, that “doesn’t fit” the crime! These manipulated children are unable to explain the reason why they aren’t in relationship with their dad – being desparate they reach the ultimate low of their intelligence by concluding- “it’s dad’s new wife!”. Hmmmm?? I wonder where that thinking came from?  How scary it is to see and hear that this is the common explanation offered by many alienating parents, when their own new partner is included and welcomed??  Makes the intelligent cringe at the obvious manipulation.  These are all carefully crafted  disguises by desperate women to keep their sickness alive. If the kids dare to reach out to their dad, or connect with them,  they will also experience the power of her rejection and wrath. How horrible for a mother to keep her children in emotional and mental unwellness, just to feed her own sick ego.    Little-Girl-parental-alienation

I am committed as a woman to continue to work extremely hard to support the financial and emotional independence of women- as an adult educator and independent woman, I am deeply offended by these “women” that are sadly more frequent than rare.   It sickens and it disgusts me to the point that I have made sure that I will be part of a powerful documentary and team to expose these women and bring their sick behavior to an end.

Blinded by their own ambitions and emotional un-wellness, they are representing women in a way that needs to change!  I am committed to being part of that change!  If you are THAT woman, come clean and get well and we welcome you to join into the movement of loving your kids and bringing dignity to our gender!

Thanks for listening….dedicated to you CPM! ! Praying for your broken heart – one day you will see them again!






Living Without Plants…….

Can you live without plants?  

pond_3254966bIt’s a gorgeous day!  The sun is shining, the birds are singing and there is a slight feel of  the crispness of the fall day on this 3rd Saturday in October!   I have my doors and windows wide open! I am loving the freshness and drinking in every last minute of the sun season  in preparation for the presence of the impending  winds and rain that are so common here in the rain forests of BC.

I looked out my window and  was delighted to see flowers still blooming in their planters! My pansies!  Their adorable smiling faces are looking back at me, and the hint of the silhouette of an angel painted across their gentle faces make them my most favorite flower!!              pansy-flower

I bounced down the stairs, with papers in hand making my way to the recycling bin.  Relishing my rare day off I slowed down my pace  walking by several planters and pots.

While experiencing the joy of seeing the flowers bloom or smelling the fragrance of the lavender that gently grows throughout the year, I became aware of thoughts not familiar to my mind!

While my day is delightful, hovering in the background my heart is troubled over some personal issues I am unable to resolve.  I looked at the plants that I love and sensed an overwhelming feeling of tiredness.   I noticed that one of my planters that is full of beautiful fall pansies bursting out like it’s spring, had weeds hiding in among them.  The weeds, while  green like the leaves of the flower,  were much  larger and looked silly to me trying to hide among the beauty.  These nasty intruders were clearly trying to hide the fact that their intention was to take over!! Their goal was to choke the life out of the tiny, gentle plants.

Normally it wouldn’t bother me, but with the hard decisions looming before me, I felt myself sigh….”weeding…now”?? “Can’t I just have a plant that doesn’t grow weeds”?

I noticed my chest rising as I paused and took a deep breath. Mixed with emotions, I determined to release my breath slowly while honoring and listening to my thoughts.

In the quietness of this moment I became aware of a still soft voice seeming to appear out of the plants speaking straight to my heart. As weird as it might seem, it was as if the plants whispered (for the record, I don’t believe plants can talk) -“Candace, we are plants, we need food, and water, and feeding and grooming, (weeding)…, why are you surprised at the presences of weeds? Don’t you like the work that comes with us? I also realized that relationships are like plants.  They are gentle, easily crushed and come with weeds!  Weeds of misunderstanding, judgement, harsh words, neglect and general lack of care, can choke the life out of any relationship.  Maybe if we understand that relationships are like yards and gardens, we might approach them more simply and clearly, applying simple acts of tender kindness to help them live healthy- doing our part.  Weeds are inevitable, they came with the conditions of the Garden……so I began to understand the lesson here.

I understood that my current weariness was a combination of physical exhaustion due to working two full time jobs for the past month and emotional draining through circumstances not relevant to mention here.  I felt so upset with those weeds and it was silly, as I usually don’t mind weeding at all…. I saw that I just didn’t want to do the work. Very simply, if you don’t like the work then don’t have plants”!


Plants, like relationships, take work- so I saw my need to adjust my attitude and take a clue from the plants….. If you don’t want the work then “Live without  Plants”!



Enjoy your day…. and enjoy your plants!

Candace xxoo

How does “Love” Get Lost? Understanding Divisions in Relationships

SILOUTETTEThe experience of “love lost” can leave hope that ” love found” is a possibility.  Candace 2015

If you are human and reading this, somewhere or somehow you will experience this life challenge -if you aren’t in the middle of it already!  Without oversimplifying or taking into consideration abusive situations,  falling “in” and “out” of love in relationships and including “love lost” between family members, friends. and others, seems inevitable and unavoidable.   For sure there are thousands of articles written by experts, incurable romantics,  and cynics on the mysteries of being in love one minute and out of it the next minute and why people seem to cross from one extreme of love to another.

I thought I would throw in my proverbial two cents!  I believe this can apply to all relationships that change in a “heartbeat”.   How can a husband who once loved his wife dearly, find himself “protecting”  himself from the very woman he once adored? How can wives, mothers, fathers, children and dear friends end up not speaking to each other?   Division is a disease! Its  a “cancer”  and it has all the same traits as physical “cancer”-   Cancer by rapidly dividing brings many other “otherwise” healthy cells (people) with it and and it happens emotionally and physically far too much!  Consider the term “projection”.

Beware in case a root of bitterness rises up inside of you and “defiles many”… (spreads like a cancer among all those you talk about it too) … Paul the Apostle

In a instant our feelings can change towards those that we interact with by what is going on “INSIDE” ourselves, not what’s happening  to us on the “OUTSIDE”.

It is 1000 % impossible for ANY human being to climb inside you and make you behave a certain way.  If bad behavior, forgiveness, hatred, division, and every other possible human feeling comes out of you while interacting with another, then “its coming out of you”!  No one can do ANYTHING outside of you to “bring out this bad stuff in you- unless it’s already IN there”!   Its a tough thing to face, but one that must be faced indeed. If I act unkind or mean, or cold towards another it’s because I have something inside of me that I believe in is happening (even if it isn’t) and I act as if what I believe is true and then I “project” that behavior onto another. This is the essence of “projection” – I’m not pretending to think it is happening but  at that critical emotional moment I am truly believing what I am projecting onto you is true!   I think it is truly happening and then I “act” on that truth by dividing myself against you.

According to Wikipedia the psychological term for “projection” is this: Psychological projection, also known as blame shifting, is a theory in psychology in which humans defend themselves against unpleasant impulses by denying their existence in themselves, while attributing them to others.[1] For example, a person who is rude may constantly accuse other people of being rude.According to some research, the projection of one’s negative qualities onto others is a common process in everyday life.[2

not in love




I am sure we have all experienced shocking things said by people who don’t know us, or  think they do know us but are completely off base. Sadly we have been guilty of this ourselves! It is pretty easy for humans to do this and we are all capable of doing this.  Words are powerful and we have all been guilty of using them wrongly. On the receiving end, these things can happen either from us or to us as a result of projection.

The sad process for division by projection is understood in these 5 steps: 

1. Some kind of incident that triggers “maladaptive and emotionally immature thinking processes” (possibly triggered by a hurt that in the initial reaction is unable to be understood at the time, or threat to personal sense of emotional safety).

2. The inability on the person who is hurt to recognize their own heart change – again it’s  “in YOUR heart” and that is NOT attributed to the actions of the other person regardless of how you felt or you judged what you thought was happening. (emotional panic attack, makes you think something has happened when that is not exactly how the story goes).  Again,  no one can “change” you inside because if they could, wouldn’t they want to change your heart for good back to them so they can be close to you again?.

3. The refusal to question your OWN  change of heart, measured against what you believe just happened or is happening? (you don’t have enough accurate information to make decisions)

4. The pride that keeps your judgements alive without questioning your accuracy of judgement.

5. The emotional  immaturity that continues by not seeing the bigger picture.

Sadly, these are the steps that keep division alive. If we have the courage to truly look at ourselves, we have to admit that our “strongest” relationships are measured by our “weakest ones”. In other words,  if we have all kinds of divisions and then we think we have all kinds of “healthy loving relationships”  we are lying to ourselves.

We are only as strong as our weakest relationships…..  

As soon as the people you are with now do something to hurt you, you will end up acting exactly the same way to them at some point.  If you are capable of doing it to one person, you will do this to another until you see it and change.  This requires deep thinking and higher emotional intelligence. It’s a challenge for sure as we tend not to want to have to “work” on ourselves. We look for “false peace” and we run from relationship challenges that are intended for our growth. We want things to come easy and we don’t want to have to do the “work” of forgiveness or learn greater understanding.

For those of you who are sitting in the judgement of weak minded people who are continuing to “project”- hang in there. Keep your heart open and one day, someday, the scales will drop off.  I know its hard to wait, as memories and life which is so short and unpredictable continues on by. One day  they will truly “see ” that all this time, you always loved them and missed them dearly!   Just because they can’t believe it right now, doesn’t mean it has to stay that way.

Pray for the eyes of their understanding to be open and that they find healing for what is troubling them, so they can be healthy.   When they become secure enough to take a look inside and learn the lesson then they will no longer twist your attempts to reach out as some kind of manipulation. Their eyes will be clear and “see”  you for the real person you are.

To the pure, all things are pure….God 

This is why it is super important to stay open and forgiving, so that when they do return, you are ready and open in your heart to resume love! You can’t hold burning coals of un-forgiveness and judgement close to your heart without it burning you.

“Guard YOUR  heart with ALL diligence for out of it proceeds the issues of life”….. God

So if there are those of you who have experienced “my projection” I am truly and humbly sorry….. let’s eradicate this emotional cancer called division and find Love again!



AGT Season 2 WINNER Terry Fator is successful… but how do you define success?

Terry Fator


Terry Fator, America’s Got Talent Season 2 winner is very successful!  Terry is extremely talented, with having 100 ventriloquist impersonations, and 16 different puppets in his act.

He is certainly a superb entertainer, however, he is far more than a Las Vegas act.  Terry and his show changes the lives of people every day, for the good,  including some of my friends.

It is a privilege to be in the “industry”,  (slang for entertainment) and an even bigger privilege when you meet people that you can call friends.  Terry Fator is one of those people.  When we were producing our successful Canadian TV Series, (Unscripted, a 1/2 hour celebrity biography show in 2008/ 2009 ) the executive producer added a special line up that focused on newcomer and AGT Season 2 winner, Terry Fator.

Terry drove all night from Las Vegas to the Beverly Montage Hotel where we were filming just to get to the interview on time! His professional and polite demeanor on the set demonstrated his impressive work ethic combined with his integral character to get to us on time. He can certainly personify the song, “I drove all night” ♬ ♬

Traveling along with him were some of his cast of characters!  I imagined the murmurings of these life like, delightful, and whimsical puppets having conversations with each other while complaining about traveling inconveniences being transported in a trunk.

What is really important to know about Terry, is that he is a deeply caring and compassionate human being and the thousands who have attended his shows have experienced that.  Friends of mine that Terry graciously hosted at his show in Las Vegas have come back to tell me the stories of audience members that he has supported through sickness, health and celebrations.

This past year he lost his beloved sister Debi. I did not know Debi, but I understand as I have too lost my sister in the past year and a half.  Terry’s willingness to openly share is heart and grief with his audiences endears him to those who get to participate in his shows. To hear his tribute to his beloved sister click here

A few nights ago, Terry delighted his audience with an old fashioned marriage proposal to his very surprised fiance, Angie Fiore  if you scroll down on his page FB Page,  you will see a very precious exchange between Terry and his new bride to be!   Congratulations Terry and Angie!

See Terry with Angie-

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So how do you define success in the “industry”?  Outside of his obvious talent and over 290,000 FB fans, Terry’s success is his heart, kindness and amazing compassion!

If you can’t get to Vegas anytime soon, then at least enjoy his show here on you tube!

Proud to call you my friend!


Have you been “cut off”??…… it doesn’t have to be a “bad” thing!

My mother was an amazing gardener; me, not so much. I knew that my sisters managed to figure it out and to my knowledge are all great gardeners. However, having had so much influence around me, I couldn’t figure out why I was a such a dismal failure.

I would watch my mom chop back her roses until there was almost nothing left. She did this in preparation for the fall and winter seasons, ( I thought she was killing them). She assured me it was necessary.  When spring came around to my surprise,  tiny buds formed just above the places she had pruned.  Before you knew it there were a harvest of gorgeous salmon colored, incredibly fragrant roses! It was a mystery to me.  I had tried many times to grow herbs, especially herbs,  because of my love for cooking and using fresh produce. I used my mother’s pruning principles; in my  mind I did exactly what she did!   My luck with pruning was poor,  to say the least.  I would buy already established plants to see if that would help and did exactly as the garden center instructed me with the feeding, watering regime and soil quality. At first they would look awesome, but of course they were already established plants.   They would grow for a few weeks so beautifully, and then when it came time to harvest, they would die within a week of harvesting the herbs!    I could NOT figure it out……until recently.

My favorite teacher, Jesus, said ” He cuts off every branch of mine that doesn’t produce fruit, and he prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more.

I was sure I used this principle when I was trimming my herbs??  However, time and time again, they would die.  In my frustration, I had asked another expert what I was doing wrong.  It turns out I was “cutting them off or pruning them all wrong”.  Apparently there is a “right way” to cut something off.  Pruning is vital and important to the growth of plants and the principles work the same with people.

I discovered that there is a certain place on the plant that you never cut below, or it simply won’t grow and that is exactly what I was doing wrong. Apparently you can trim things back until you reach the point where there is still a little growth. That will then inspire new growth. But I was cutting it off completely down to the bottom thinking that would do the trick and all it did was kill the plant.

So there is a lesson I learned from pruning that I can apply to people and relationships.

If you cut someone off completely and leave NO room for any kind of opportunity for reconciliation, that is the same mistake I was making when I was cutting my herbs. I was taking everything away. In people, when you cut them off without any chance of reconciliation, you take their hope away and you will kill their spirit.   They can’t grow, because people, like plants, have to have some hope that their pruning will help them understand what you are trying to tell them.  They also need time in your presence to hear your heart and concerns, otherwise they can only speculate.  Cutting them off completely leaves them in the state you left them and you have just contributed to their lack of growth.  No one can grow with out feedback, good soil, understanding and hope that they can learn from their mistakes or gain insight into why you felt the need to “prune” them.IMG_0872 IMG_0771 IMG_0890  IMG_0891 IMG_0887

So if you have cut someone off and think that somehow you are going to “improve” them, think again. Forgiveness, compassion and yes, even sharing your heart and pain in a respectful way is like pruning correctly.  But complete cutting them off with no hope of ever being able to sort it out…. well that’s just cruelty… serves no purpose…it kills………………

LJK- Let’s remember that Love, Joy Kindness are the gifts we have to give one another… lets’ build one another up…We are called to love……


Mark 11:25
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins

Matthew 6:14“For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15“But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.

No Limits! A MUST Read for this Summer!

Every once in awhile you get the chance to read a book that compels you to look beyond yourself. While this book doesn’t fall into the “self help” category, it has the same impact!  “No Limits”  will draw you in as you ride on a life journey of an unstoppable premiere athlete.   While I have never considered myself an athlete, I have certainly maneuvered through life’s challenging obstacles that feel strangely similar in overcoming defeat again and again.

NO LIMITS- Buy it here

This can’t put it down until you finish book,  is the true story of a life lived beyond the limits of  human endurance. Proud to call her a fellow Canadian, World Champion Kick Boxer, Secret Police Officer and RAAM (Race Across America) Bike Champion, Leah Goldstein, with the help of colleague and friend Lori Moger, have documented in detail, the experiences and internal thoughts of a determination that is unprecedented. This book takes you on a journey as if you are climbing along with Leah and feeling the impact of her surpassing physical and mental agony rising from ordinary to the extraordinary.  Raw, honest and real, this book will propel anyone to look beyond the pain that holds them from reaching their dreams and fires the courage inside to dig deep.

“School’s out”

It’s a lazy early summer afternoon and I am sitting here on our beautiful deck, enjoying the statuesque oak, maple and cedar trees lining the spacious back yard.  Just 20 feet away a squirrel is rapidly advancing into the maple tree to grab more seeds and filling the already fatted cheeks! I can feel the gentle breeze and hear the call of finches in the woods behind our new place.  Wild flowers we planted recently are starting to poke their heads through the rich, brown soil bringing the promise of butterflies and hummingbirds.   The red syrup is prepped and ready to attract one of my favorite birds in the hummingbird feeder just 3 feet away!

I spent a part of this afternoon sleeping on the covered hammock down by the oak trees.  I have never been in such a beautiful and restful space. It backs onto a ravine with a trickling creek down below. What a gift! ! It’s like camping in your own backyard! All it needs now is the big swing between the two giant oak trees! Can’t wait! Hubby’s next project! IMG_0248 IMG_0250 IMG_0251

Summer is a time to live fully, enjoying nature and trying new things. I work hard all year round as you do too  and so it’s such a pleasure to enjoy the time at home. Whatever you are doing this summer, make sure you are giving yourself the best summer ever!

Time for a change…..


Just over two years ago my husband and I celebrated our lives together. I have never known of a couple who has gone through so much and had so much love and family and friends supporting our lives together while having a few choice enemies to try and subvert us. They weren’t successful.  We have been through so much, in our 4 years together.  When I first met my husband, his father had just died only a few months prior and he was just finding his voice and inner strength.

The following year in spite of untold adversity from “those closest”,  and a very nasty divorce and vicious attacks, we then had to deal with  my mother who broke her hip twice in the same few months. The first one was once in later June 2011 and the other in Oct 2011.  She subsequently died in my arms Nov 11, 2011.

After all the hardship and stress, he was still my rock and my strength. While still grieving a few months later and having had the stress of another difficult situation, he was innocently obeying the law while waiting for a bus to pull out and a woman who didn’t see the bus  he was legally waiting to pull out from slammed into him.  The impact was so bad his frame crumbled on his car and he has permanent nerve damage and spasms.  After the accident it was debilitating for him and I had to take on a second job to pay his family obligations due to him not being able to work for over 7 months. My older sister needed to move from the cold in Edmonton to live with us  and not long after she came to live with us all kinds of strange symptoms eventually resulted in a tragic diagnosis of stage 4 lung cancer. Not long after,  she died this past January 11, 2014.  After her death and in the middle of so much grief,  we had a near fatal car accident May 4th….
In spite of all the challenges we have, we are strong and our love is stronger and our forgiveness for those who have hurt us continues to be our priority.  We just sold our house to release the hold that was on us and we are excited about our new journey and our future… stay tuned for more to come…… thank you for your love!